Calm.

19Jun08

Each morning I wake up wondering, “Will it be today?” “What would it feel like?”

And when the signs come, I wonder if I would have the time and the presence of mind to put into practice all the breathing exercises taught at antenatal classes, or would it be a mad panicky rush?

Having heard a variety of firsthand stories ranging from calm controlled labour to unexpected rushed C-sections, I think it’s safe to conclude that it’s difficult to anticipate what my own experience would eventually turn out to be.

In my mind, I have a rosy picture of a peaceful epidural-administered delivery, where I would have ample time to sleep and watch House on my laptop. Perhaps, even sneak in a few photojournalistic shots of the midwives moving in and out of the ward?

But who knows what reality would be like.

Many people have asked me if I was afraid of the coming labour. I usually smile and say, “not really because no matter how painful, it would be over in about 24 hours.” I think people find it odd that I feel totally calm about it. 

On hindsight, I realise that the true source behind my calmness was actually several promises the Lord had made to me throughout this pregnancy. He had spoken to me through a variety of means, assuring me that all would be well and He would see me through it all. And He has been bringing me godly friends who remind me that no matter what exigencies happen in the delivery room, call out to God and He will provide the solution. He would be there with us in that delivery room.

I cannot overemphasise how comforting and reassuring it is to know that we have a faithful God we can trust and cling to should any unexpected crises crop up in the delivery room. I think it is this inner lifeline connection to God that had been sustaining me and preventing me from tipping over into excess worrying whenever something went wrong in the pregnancy. And so I believe it will continue to sustain me through delivery.

Thank you Lord in advance for your Hand of Protection. Like a shepherd guides his sheep into safe pastures, I know you will guide me, hubs and qiqi into safe pastures too

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